I've been running. Yes, I finally admit to running away from the calling the Lord has placed on my life. I could sit here and blame all of my past problems on other people and situations until my face turned blue, but the cold hard fact of the matter is that I can't hear my Lord and Savior speak to me anymore because I stopped listening. Now, more than ever, I want to reopen my ears, my eyes, my mind to the things of heaven again. I'm realizing that it will take more effort on my part. No longer can I be a lazy christian who reads her bible every once in a while and only speak in tongues once a week. At all times I should have the word in my heart, for Jesus is the Word and the word is life. When I place God's scriptures in my heart, then I've placed Jesus in my heart and my fire will reignite. I know very deep down that reading the word will ireheat this heart that grew cold.

I'm sick of being lukewarm and ordinary. There are too many "sit around, do nothing" christians in the American society these days. there are too many people that hang the title "christian" around their neck like it's a oneway ticket to heaven. To say a prayer once and only mean it for a week. The fact of the matter is we AS CHRISTIANS, as followers of Christ, should be out winning souls, living pure lives, and enjoying all the wonders and gifts that God has given us if we are truly saved. He gave us dominion over the Earth. He heals our sick bodies, he provides all that we need, he comforts us. He's the perfect caretaker, the perfect father. And again, it keeps coming back to the word. If we follow his word, do as the generations who came before us did, then we can have ALL that was promised to them. for God is no respector of persons. He loves all the same. So if he promised something to one of his children, he is more than happy to do the same for all of his children. BUT in his timing will you reap the reward.

God, I want you to overflow my heart with a passion for the lost and hurting. Refresh my fire. Start it anew, and I will continue to feed the flame with worship, and prayer, and scripture. It's good to be home Dad.